The stone in my chest

Ezekiel 36:26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.

A family member gave me this verse a few years ago.
I never really put much thought into it.
I found it yesterday while going through some boxes in the basement.

And it hit me.
Hard.

I can try and try and try and try
to take the ugliness out of my heart,
the bitterness I feel towards some people
The anger, the hurt

But
Only GOD can take that hardness, that ugliness, the bitterness, the hurt
And soften it.
Only when I let HIM work on my heart.
Only when I actually trust Him.

So right now I give completely the yuckies of my heart.
Because I need to have my heart soften, broken.

So that I can love like Jesus
Because right now I pick and choose who and when I will love like Jesus.
And that's just no good.

I want to live without freely, love others freely.

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