Winter. It's cold. And in Ohio, so dreary. Lacking of the sun. Or the ability to play outside and feel the warmth on your skin. Days stuck inside. And it all starts to weigh heavy. My spirit goes down the drain. The heaviness on my shoulders & in my heart seems to be slowly crushing me. But I won't stop the struggle. I won't give up & let it eat me alive. The panic attacks that leave me breathless. The numbness. And then the crying. It will all pass. It always passes. But in the middle when the struggle is real I'm thankful for people who speak life into me, God's closeness, being able to receive that warm blanket of His word, hot coffee & making out with my husband, hey, let's get real, making out helps.
Oh my goodness I just had my first real life coffee date in a while (since I was at my parents gramma babysat) and it was amazing!!!! Four hours later my heart was so filled. If we were having coffee I would tell you that I unplugged from social media for the month, it's been so refreshing. I agree, my ability to deal with chaos is a lot shorter then when I'm really i tune with the real world.
ReplyDeleteI'm trying to separate more just to be more available in real life, it's kinda tough finding that balance some days.
DeleteAwesome coffee date, Katie! I love your thoughts on eating more real food. If I come across some family-friendly recipes, I will send them your way. We made loaded sweet potatoes this weekend, and they were delicious. Super healthy and packed with flavor. I pinned the recipe, so you can find it there if you're interested. I wrote down the link you previously posted to 100 Days of Real Food. If we were having coffee, I would tell you that you inspired me to start running again. I ran yesterday morning, and it was HARD. Every muscle aches today, but it is wonderful. I would tell you about the veggies growing in my garden. I would tell you that God has blessed me with a sweet sister in Christ. She lives in my neighborhood, and she is suffering from infertility as well. We have been getting together three mornings a week to pray about our desires for motherhood. God is working.
ReplyDeleteAmazing, the people God places in our lives, I pray His will in this for both of you!!! Running is tough, yet so encouraging in a weird way.
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