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Finding joy is tough

She was at the top of stairs, I could hear her singing Frosty the Snowman and when I turned the corner I saw the dancing, and the huge smile & the glitter. And it make me giggle. Sure there is now glitter every where that we will probably never truly rid our carpet of because....GLITTER. 


But joy, joy was not hard to find in this messy situation. But I am finding joy in the daily to be more of a struggle than I was hoping for. When I choose joy for my word for 2014, it came from such a deep place of longing of full freedom in my heart & home. Finding joy in the trying to help my son who is struggling with reading is tough. Finding joy when I'm sick & don't have the energy to clean is tough. Finding joy when my toddler still refuses most days to poop on the potty is tough. Finding joy when the bonus we were hoping for didn't happen, which means the broken furniture will remain is tough.

I want my joy to come from Jesus, not from the little struggles of my day. To be hopeful when it's frustrating. 

That in the big picture I am filled to the brim with great happiness.
Because I have a son, with a huge heart, that inspires me to love deeper. I have a home to clean. I have a toddler who is almost all the way potty trained. My husband has a job & while the furniture frustrates me at least we have some. 

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  1. it is tough in different seasons, that's for sure. i hope with all my heart kaite that Jesus will fill you with His beautiful joy today.

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  3. I'm sorry to hear your son is struggling with reading -- that's tough. :( I'm a school psychologist, and at a conference I went to last summer, a reading researcher recommended MindPlay Virtual Reading Coach for struggling readers, an interactive computer program that she said was the best thing she'd seen for kids having reading difficulties, other than working one-on-one with a reading specialist. I don't get commission or anything ;) but I've been using it with a student at my school and have been very impressed with it. If you're interested, you can order it for 200 dollars here: https://www.homeschoolbuyersco-op.org/mindplay/?c=1 If you have any questions, please feel free to email me at vrentz at bcps. k12. md. us Blessings to you!

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  4. Love this Katie, and I love your word!

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  5. So good. Sometimes we just gave to say, "today I choose joy!"

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