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"Mom who is that?"
"That's me when I was pregnant with Addie"
"But your belly looks so small"

This is the "small" 30 week pregnant belly she is referring to.
This is my battle. Ok one of them, that I write a lot about on this blog. Where I keep saying I'm going to get back to that place. To where I was smaller. To before I had Addison. I finally found that place & then I got pregnant again. And I gained just as much with her and I did with my twins. 

I have been feeling so lost, overwhelmed. By not seeing results, by knowing the truth that I have been half assing (don't worry you won't see these words like ever on my blog, but today it's just what it is) my eating. Sure I would have good days followed by days of all day eating, leaving me more empty that ever. 

What do you do when you get to this place? You just start. Start somewhere that makes sense. Start with acceptance & grace. And knowing that you can't keep doing the same things over and over and over. I can't tell you I won't write this blog again in 3 weeks 5 months or 7 years. 

But today I'm choosing better. Today I'm keeping hope that this can change in my mind. Today I'm looking back at what worked to go forward. 







Comments

  1. YOU GO GIRL. this post makes me happy because it's so real and that's what i love about you.

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  2. oh katie, can i say i hear your words so loud and clear? it certainly is a struggle, but you can do it. you can succeed with acceptance and grace.. i loved that. let me know if you'd like an accountability partner girl!

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