What does it mean to be a daughter of God? And how does one who has forever struggled with a father relationship supposed to walk this out? Here's what I know. Earthly fathers are sinners. Like me. And like you. I have to constantly bring it back to that. God is not a sinner. My dad is a sinner. And Mike. And Bill. And Dave. All these men that have been in my life. One that helped give me life. One that was abusive and turned our lives upside down. One who I know actually loves my mama. And one I got as a bonus father (in law) And here's what I know. Everyone has scared me. Men scare me. All. Every. It doesn't matter who they are. Their past & current will never change how I feel. I walk life scared if I'm alone in an elevator with just a man or in an aisle at Kroger. I'm scared if anyone walks up behind me, but men raise that terror to a whole other level. And then there's God. This being who is to love me wholly. Who I should wan
"we tend to stay away from mourning and dancing. too afraid to cry, too shy to dance. we become narrow-minded complainers, avoiding pain and also true human joy. while we live in a world subject to the evil one, we belong to God. let us mourn, and let us dance." -henri nouwen