Monday, September 16, 2013

But...that person isn't me

If I'm being totally honest I am freaking out about going to Influence. I'm reading all these encouraging tips for going to a blog conference & tips from people who want last year. And I think oohhh these are good, oh that's good....but

And my weaknesses scatter all across my mind, discouraging this messy heart. I start to believe I shouldn't be there. Or that my pathetic frumpy wardrobe will be a big sticker that says stay away from me. Or the thought that these blogger friends don't really want to meet up for coffee, giggle, cry, hug {or for the non-huggers, a good handshake}

 There's something that happens when you're on the move for something big in your heart, the enemy feeds lies like it's chocolate. And boy, do I take huge bites, because just like I indulge in chocolate, I indulge in the insecurity of those lies.

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life and live it to the fullest. John 10:10

Oh how the enemy would love it if I'd give up, skip out and not step out of my comfort zone. But Jesus, oh my Jesus, he wants me to be encouraged and live this life He has given me to the fullest.


  1. Totally good that you're stepping out of your comfort zone. You're probably going to be so happy you're going! I can't wait to hear all about it!

  2. I totally get that! It's such a scary step to make. You'll do great. I loved this post!

  3. yes, this! i pulled up to the hotel last year and felt like i was going to crap my pants. i felt ridiculous for being there. even more this year, quite honestly. and even though i KNOW how life giving the conference is, i am still finding myself believing lies this week. praying for you. you're in good company & are not the only one! you're going to have a great time. keep being confident in who Jesus made you to be & nothing else.

  4. Oh girl. I have such a similar post coming up tomorrow because I have SO many fears about influence. SO many. I'm excited to meet you.