Winter. It's cold. And in Ohio, so dreary. Lacking of the sun. Or the ability to play outside and feel the warmth on your skin. Days stuck inside. And it all starts to weigh heavy. My spirit goes down the drain. The heaviness on my shoulders & in my heart seems to be slowly crushing me. But I won't stop the struggle. I won't give up & let it eat me alive. The panic attacks that leave me breathless. The numbness. And then the crying. It will all pass. It always passes. But in the middle when the struggle is real I'm thankful for people who speak life into me, God's closeness, being able to receive that warm blanket of His word, hot coffee & making out with my husband, hey, let's get real, making out helps.
1. You run. There for your a runner. And if we lived closer I would run with you. 2. You're so sweet to say hi to Addi. I can't wait to show her after nap time.
ReplyDeleteIf we were having coffee I would tell you I can't have coffee because my stomach is so upset. All day long. It's not fun. And it's crazy around our house with cousins and kids. So I need some serious prayers for rest. And that I can get my long run in tomorrow.
I'm so excited about your foster care almost being done. Evan and I have been having lots of conversations lately about if we're done having kids and only adopting or if we'll try to have one more. Exciting times!
I've talked to several people in that should we have more or go deeper with adoption, it's a huge step, but just keep focused on God and He will direct you!!
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"I have to trust God in all of this... because sometimes I just want to do it." SO much truth in that. Love your honest heart. I can totally relate. It can be so HARD - but so rewarding to let go and let God. You are inspiring!!! God is going to bless your family so much for taking care of His "little ones" that need a home. XO
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