We walked. Well, I walked, Addie sat in her stroller and yelled out to every flower & flower like weed she saw. She smiled and giggled. I listened to my music and got lost in my thoughts. All I could think about are all my wrong doings. The things I can never seem to get right. My daily failings. I could feel the burning of an ugly cry on the horizon.
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
And I don't want to end up where you found me
But Jesus I feel like I'm one mistake away from you leaving me this way
Jesus can you show me how far the east is from the west
And the tears started welling up.
I waited for that lady to pass.
I lost it.
Right on that walking path in the middle of the Trenton Park.
I no longer could keep my prayers and beggings just that.
I had to break.
The truth is people are fragile & life is messy.